I need a fucking drink.

If there was ever a time to drink my pain away, this would be it.

8.30am tomorrow morning.

that will be when we put my best friend to sleep.

my darling puppy dog, 13 1/2 years old, a fighter until the end.

she's had a cyst, multiple infections, and

arthritis. each time she came back stronger than ever.

but not last time. or this time. and now we've come to terms that she wont come back stronger again. this is it. she's at the point now where she's in pain and its not fair to keep her like that.

it may be the hardest thing ive ever done up to now.

im pretty sure it is. harder than deciding to move to a different fucking country.

harder than dialing those awful three numbers in times of emergencies.

harder than letting people go and accepting defeat to stupid situations.

this is the worst.

you may think im dumb cause shes just a dog.

but shes not just a dog. shes been in our family longer than my brother.

she really is a part of our family.

shes cherished and loved and every time that tornado siren goes, shes the one i check on and get to safety.

13.5 years is a long fucking time.

ive been with her longer than all of my friends.

my head is pounding.

ill miss you so so much sweetie.

[[ It'll always be you and me, babe. ]]

Wherever you go, be it heaven or just into the earth,

I hope you will never know pain

And if karma really does exist and you are reborn,

I really hope you live the greatest life ever known.

I may not know what I believe in personally

but I know you deserve a life beyond this.

R.I.P

1996-2009

Snowy Frisendahl

My best friend

Always loyal, Always true.