Ah!

So I just woke up now.
I dreamt the strangest things.
First I was in a hallway at school and Lady GaGa was in a cage (as in the cage from Shakira's She Wolf) with a batman mask on and she was dancing and performing for an open house night at school.

The thing was, no one showed except for a couple of people from our class.  So we were just hanging out with her and I was taking pictures with her and everything.  And then some other people from the Nature programme and they were performing a song and when I asked about what song it was, Lady GaGa told me it was the "Shortened version of the syllabus."  Weird.

Suddenly it was Dea and Jennie and I who were on a subway going to see a hockey game.  A lady was looking at tickets so we all went and hid cause we didnt pay for tickets and had just jumped on.  And suddenly there was Ted from Better Off Ted and I was hanging out with him and I totally have the hots for him so it was nice :P



Anyways, it was super strange.
And then when I woke up I found a text from Dea saying that Jay Z was going to Peace and Love.
I don't think I can afford to travel to Ireland or Scotland or whatever and see Eminem.  It's not just the plane tickets, but the camping and concert tickets are also suuuuper expensive.  It might be better to just see a festival in Sweden.  There are a couple with great artists coming...

A Successful Trip

England was great. Mostly.

I've never experienced a worse cold humidity.

I can handle hot humidity. I've done that every year of my life.

But the chills and the dampness and the constant feeling of...gross...it was too much.

Anyways, we had a lot of fun overall. Except the ditching. We were ditched a lot, which was not so much fun, but we made it through.

I kind of wished I bought something while i was there, but then again, i never really found anything. Well, i found a shirt for my brother. he'll look super fly in it :)

I've been thinking about home a lot recently. Maybe it was the trip that did it, but maybe its just overall. im really wishing i could go home for christmas. im not sure if i can handle another christmas alone. even though im never really alone, it still feels like it. they all get wrapped up in their own thing and it was just me and jenny, and even then, we werent...idk...

i want to go home.

buut heres the whole growing up part, right?

i miss home. i feel like it was too short lived. i couldve enjoyed it more. so now i just have to focus on enjoying my time here. live for the moment, right?

i dreamt that i met eminem last night. and jennie took a picture of us. and i could feel my muscles, feel soreness in my legs that i didnt understand. it was so real, but i knew it was a dream anyways. i stood with jennie on a balcony overlooking an amazing view and i told her that i knew it was a dream. and she replied that she knew it too and that it really sucked. I asked her if there was any way of transferring something from a dream to reality. all i wanted was the goddamn photo of us. if i could just will it back into reality. and i really did try. but i woke up nevertheless, alone in bed, staring at the ceiling, knowing the picture had been lost.

is that sad?