"Self Defense isn't Murder..."

Had an exciting Jämnställsdagen (sp?) aka Equality Day.  Caroline Willfox came and spoke about her rape and how she came through it.  I was sitting there listening to her talk and I couldn't help but think of how this woman was completely violated a couple years ago and she was standing there in front of me at that moment, acknowledging it but also very relaxed about it.  Had she come to terms with it or was it just an act and the whole speaking out about it was just a mask to cover how disturbed she still felt inside? Hmm...anyways, she has a forum (willcommunication.se) for girls or whoever to go and just talk about rape or incest or other things.

Afterwards we did workshops and had lunch (disgusting fish).  then we watched the film Enough with Miss Lopez.  Pretty good movie i think, i just hate it when writers fast forward so suddenly. Oh they met? now theyre married! aww shes pregnant! now their marriage is falling apart! = the first 15-20 minutes of the movie. and most of it was the first part.  Idk...maybe im still just sour from Private Practice skipping like 3 months of valuable drama.

Now I'm sitting working on math and listening to a virtual thunderstorm.

I have this one memory that I really love.  It was maybe a year ago? Just me and my dad in the garage with the door open.  He was fixing something with the car which was inside the garage and i had a chair set up at the very edge of the garage, looking down the driveway towards the alley as the rain poured down.  There was the smell.  The rain smell, y'know? It's so...fresh...and amazing.  Anyways, sometimes the thunder would roll and sometimes there would be an extremely loud crack.  I asked my dad why and he explained that from where we were, if the lightning bolt went down diagonally, it would crack because the sound was cutting through air or something like that whereas if the lightning went down straight it would rumble.  I spent the next hour just listening to the rain and guessing when it would crack or rumble.

That was one of my favorite rain days ever.

Highlights from a good week

// at school before leaving //

// who sits diagonally from each other?! //

// i gave up. //

 // dude. the kids love me. //

 // at the top of kungsliften. //

// uncle and youngest cousin and i making funny faces :) //

// we the illest //

Hemavan is so pretty.

and a little side note:

The Cool Kids

babysitting my cousins isnt always a drag. theyre actually cool kids :)

//this is not as fun as it looks.//

//haha daniels wearing sunglasses for some reason.  he wore them for a really long time.  it was dark outside...//

//we reppin y'all, these streets that be keepin it real, throwin money in ya grill//

[Over and out..]

That's My Cool And I Can't Take It Off

Today Adam Tensta was at my school.  For those of you that don't know, he is a famous rapper in Sweden.  The following video is from his most recent (i think) single, Dopeboy.

Anyways, he didn't perform today but talked about his ongoing project Get On Our Team, which is aimed at teenagers and tries to promote being better people in our everyday lives. Good role model i would say. But then again, what do I know?

After he talked a friend and I ran into him in the hallways. I decided to bite the bullet and talk to him (what was the worst that could happen, right?) and the worst happened. It was awkward and I didn't really know what to say after hello and we ended up talking about my friend and why she was in Umeå for 5 minutes. Awkward did not cut it.

I told my other friend Hanna about it and she told me that even if it didn't go that well, she thought that I was extremely brave to just go up and talk to him. That's a real brain ticker. Is it brave to talk to strangers? I think so. Is it brave to talk to strangers who are all over the internet and known all over the country? I'm really not sure.

As much as I like the thought of me being brave, I don't feel brave...But oh well.

Pic from his talk today in the Aula (Auditorium):