The Good and The Incredibly Bad.

i guess the good first.

the depressing news.

we may be putting our dog to sleep.

this dog has been in our family longer than my brother.

i love this dog.

i missed her more than anyone else pretty much over the year.

and now...

my mom wants to do it before we leave. she says itll be easier on everyone.

but that doesnt make it fucking easy.

it means sometime in the next 2 weeks.

i knew it was coming. shes 13 or 14 years old. i knew it was coming.

but now its here and i just cant deal with it. at all.

shes my dog. shes the best dog. everyone thats ever met her goes "oh my god, snowy!"

my moms friend whos buddhist or something says shes such a good dog she'll be born as a human in her next life.

shes my dads favorite.

shes my favorite.

ive never been to a funeral.

ive never put an animal down.

i dont know how to go about this.

all i know is that i cant look at her without my eyes watering.