Plans

Every time I make plans, like legit plans involving a lot of people, things go wrong.
People drop out, can't make it, or other things come up.

Every time I do things spontaneously,  I end up having the time of my life, being surrounded by enjoyable company.

All the adults in my life tell me I need to plan better, but I honestly get nowhere when I plan.

Take tonight.  Aivy and I planned that we were going to go to Martini Village for the Halloween party.  Plans came up with Melody and we ended up having a lot of fun with her instead up until around 23.15 when we finally left for the club.  When we got there, there was no one else there.  The dancefloor had like 10 people on it and even the go-go dancers looked bored.  It sucked even more cause the music was actually really good, it was just a slow night...

So I ended up texting another friend and so we came back to campus and ended up with a whole new group of people having a good time.

That's how life should be, I feel.  Being spontaneous leads to experiences that can never be replaced by good ol fashioned planning.  I don't want to live life according to my calendar...


Good night.


Happy Halloween :)

Fun fun fun

Jag älskar att ha vänner som faktiskt är intresserad av sakerna som jag är intresserad av.
Som gör saker som jag gör.
Som bryr sig om saker jag bryr mig om och tvärtom.
Folk som inte oroar sig över reglar och sånt.  Som vill bara leva livet.

Jag har träffat några stycken som kanske kan bli jättebra vänner medans jag är här...Och jag vill inte tappa dem.

Livet är ju fantastiskt om man bara lär sig att njuta av det som man älskar, ignorera det som man inte gillar, och ibland riskera allt för att allting just nu är bara en lite lite bit av hela livet.


Stay thirsty, my friends.

This is the life

Yesterday I did it.  I changed my major!  I am now a marketing major with a minor in music! I'm so happy because I now have the option of staying here for the next three years with my full ride, therefore saving me soooo much money compared to if I transferred...

Today has been a pretty good day.  It feels like I'm happy all the time, even when I get really depressed for a few days time.  As if the happy days make all the sad days just melt away, which is something that makes me really...well, happy.  I don't want to hate life, I want to enjoy every second.

So what's going on in my life now?  Well, still all the same.  Hanging out with people all the time, trying to be productive in my classes, intramural sports (but i missed the volleyball game tonight because of something pretty important that I had to do), the occasional utgång and the occasional visit home.

Today I got a text during my math class saying that my family was going to go visit a family friend who is in town for about a week.  So I jumped on that and got picked up.  We ate cake, drank mimosas, and had a great time.  We even set up a giant fire in their backyard and played soccer on the lawn.  We talked, we laughed, and we cried at the Rangers' loss to the Giants in Game 1 of the World Series.  (BUT the Mavs won, so there was a silver lining).  After getting home, I chilled with some super cool kids and played pool :)

Now it is 2am and I have a bit of reading to do before my head hits my pillow.  So goodnight all, or good morning to some of you...

Love and miss you all :)

Nu Sticker Jag

I'm just going to take a quick nap since I'm dead tired and then I'm off to my advisor to switch my major to Marketing with a minor in Music.  Sounds good, no?

Sigh...I'll probably end up doing all four years here in Dallas because of money.  I hate money sometimes.  I wish I could take opportunities and stuff, but I refuse to live in debt for the rest of my life.  Basically I need to start saving money so I can pay for graduate school should I choose to go...

But marketing, yeah? Music marketing would be so cool it hurts a bit.  And with a major in general marketing, I could get a job pretty much anywhere that advertises.  As in, anywhere.  As long as there were jobs, that is.

I'm confused about some stuff but I think I'm going to be okay...

I'm Not Alone!

Wow.  I met another Swedish kid on campus today.  My day was made.  Han pratade till o med på svenska med mig en stund.  Eller, det var bara att säga "blah blah blah kommer ifrån stockholm" men kul var det iaf.
I actually had a decent day.  Which was greatly appreciated.  Even when I was retarded and totally forgot that I had my PLTL session until Michelle texted me 30 minutes after I should have started to ask if I was supposed to go or not.  Goddamn I'm dumb sometimes.

I've figured out which classes to take in the spring, which is also fun...

Men hallå.  Jag har ett problem.
Folk kommer och går från mitt liv hela tiden, som de bör göra...fast mycket snabbare.
Jag träffar någon och vi blir vänner inom två dagar och sen blir det inget mer av det efter en vecka eller två.  De bara försvinner.

Ibland förstår jag varför de försvinner, men ibland fattar jag absolut inget.
Är det för att de inte gillar mig?  Nej, det är jag ganska säkert att det inte är så.  Inte för att jag är en narcissist men därför de pratar med mig, ringer mig och knackar på mitt dörr.  Och vi har kul och allt, och sen...ja, vad ska jag säga?  Det slutar.  Helt plötsligt.  Varför?

Men det är inte bara att de försvinner, det är så att de kommer så snabbt också.  Efter att ha bara träffats en eller två gånger känner det som att vi är faktiskt bra vänner.  Liksom vi kan prata om seriösa saker fastän vi inte känner varann så mycket...

Jag vet inte.  Men när jag träffar folk som jag gillar, jag vill att de ska stanna i mitt liv...

Jackass

Came back a bit ago from a quick run out to Steak and Shake with some friends and then an impromptu movie night (Jackass 2).  It dawned on me and Alexis that we hadn't seen the 2nd film and we were dying to see the third.  So a couple of us watched it at her house.  Half of it anyways.

Oh man, is it disturbing.  But I love it ;)

My plans to see the third one were kind of messed up on Saturday but it led to hanging out with some super cool kids instead so I had fun anyways.  I need better weekends right now after being sick for so long and just rotting in the apartment.

But this weekend is Halloween weekend, so there is probably fun to be had.  As in, we're going out Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and of course Sunday there will be something (HALLOWEEN EVE). Excitement!  Too bad I have class at 08.30 on Monday mornings...

Love

HELL YES

I seriously love sports sometimes.  Most of the time.  All the time really.
There's just so many emotions that go in it, so much passion, so much dedication.  Blood, sweat, tears, and when you finally reach that victory, it's just such a strong feeling of pure ecstasy...

So you can imagine how thrilled I am that the TEXAS RANGERS won game 6 against the NEW YORK YANKEES and are now going to the WORLD FREAKING SERIES.

I'm soooo so so happy.  Even though I'm not the world's biggest baseball fan, I like it enough to actually care and appreciate their hard work :)

Have a Cigar

I don't think it's healthy how much I love Pink Floyd...Or what am I talking about, of course it's healthy.  It should be the preferred lifestyle of everyone in the world.

Anyways.  My blog posts have been pretty boring recently.  So let's liven it up!

Today is my sisters 21st birthday, super excited for her :)  So we're going to a mexican restaurant for dinner where she'll probably have a margarita or something haha.  It's exciting but at the same time, we were allowed to do this when we lived in Sweden so it doesn't have quite the same excitement since we've been through this before..

Now Tyler and Michelle are watching Trainspotters in my living room.  It's interesting so far but I'm leaving soon so I won't be able to watch it :/

We'll see.  Let's see if I can get something interesting on here before the weekends over..

Forget What You're Told

Never have I ever had so many secrets of my own.

I'm meeting people, people I really like and want to get to know but I don't really know how to proceed.
I'm a friend-whore it's been discovered.
I love meeting new people, I love making new friends.
But I'm not super close with anyone yet.  I haven't found my BFF, y'know?
I know people, I'm super close to lots of people, but I wouldn't call anyone here at 3am just because I can't sleep and something is on my mind and I'm hurting.

They say they'll be there for you, but I guess I just haven't seen that level of commitment on a friend level from anyone.

Everyone is backing away once I do something they don't agree with.

I don't judge you, why do you get to judge me?
I didn't judge when you ruined other peoples' lives, when you ruined your own life, when you did and said things that most people wouldn't ever let their friends say to them.  Because I understood that there's always a reason.  But one thing I'm having trouble understanding is why I'm not allowed to make what you call mistakes.  Why I can't enjoy life to the fullest even if that involves doing things that aren't what you consider right.

I stand by my actions.  I regret nothing.  Every decision I make takes me to the next step and thats all that matters.  Why waste so much time wondering if youre ready for something?  Just do it.  Life is too short to bother anymore, I've discovered.  Especially since I'll probably die young.  I'm convinced itll happen and I don't know why...

Ughhhhh.
I'm getting carried away.

Sick

And not really enjoying it.
Yesterday and today have been surprisingly productive.  I ended up at a neighbors apartment for a couple of hours to study for the chemistry exam both days and I actually think I might have gotten somewhere.  It should be better than last time at least...I hope.

I've made a new goal for myself.  Things have gotten static again so I need to mix things up.  I've already mixed a couple of things up but it doesn't feel like enough.  I don't feel satisfied with my life right now.  So I'm going to rearrange my room to hold me off for another couple of days and then I'm going to have to do something.  I'm not sure what yet, but it has to be something.

Oh but back to the point, my goal: I'm going to get into shape with school, it's gotten to the point where it's not even funny how much I put off.  Starting the second I post this I'm going to be in school mode.  I'm going to fix my life so I can get to where I want to be.

Which means I'm going to email my advisor tomorrow and request to switch my major. Oh damn.
And then I'm going to do research this week on what schools I'm going to apply for transfer.  Or maybe I'll stay here.  But either way, I need to explore options at least.

So here goes.
Skål till mitt nytt liv?

Inte ett ord

Ibland är det skönt att ha sina egna hemligheter.

Grime

I've recently discovered an artist by the name of Tinie Tempah that I adore because of his catchy hooks and silly (yet surprisingly clever) lyrics.  In my cry for even more music, I was told to listen to an artist named Tinchy Stryder.  I pretty much fell in love.  He's similar to Tinie Tempah and so I began to dig into it.  Which led me to discover that they are part of a genre called Grime which originated in East London in the early 2000's.  Pretty much, it's amazing.  Check these out:

You're Not Alone by Tinchy Stryder



Game Over by Tinchy Stryder featuring Tinie Tempah



Written in the Stars by Tinie Tempah



Cross My Heart by Skepta featuring Preeya Kalidas



Green Light by Roll Deep



Number 1 by Tinchy Stryder featuring N-Dubz




Just a glimpse at what I'm listening to right now ;)

It is October, after all.

Got pranked sooo bad yesterday.  It was awful.

Asså, min granne kom och knackade på dörren och han hade blöd över händerna och han och sin kompis ba "VI BEHÖVER DIN HJÄLP. KOM NU." så jag sprang och vi kom in och gick till badrummet där en tjej som jag känner la i badkaret och blödde. Det var asläskigt.  Det fanns en blodigt kniv i diskbänken (?) och jag försökte lugna alla ner och sen började alla skratta.  Alla förutom jag och aivy.  Vi fattade ingenting...Asså det var skitläskigt och sen skitkul efter vi fattade.

Men ja ja, så är det i oktober haha.

Anyways.  Och idag!  Shiiit, vi hade fotbollsträning (amerikansk flag fotboll?) och bara typ 5 kom så vi bara kastade bollen till varandra för en stund.  Och sen bestämde våran granne att klättra up TRE VÅNINGAR över allas balkong och gå in i en annan grannes lägenhet.  det var så himla kul, jag dog.  och sen klättrade han ner efter allting.  skitkul no lie.  sen började vi kasta bollen igen haha.

Få se...vad tänker jag på nu?

ATT JAG SAKNAR ALLA MINA BÄSTISAR I LILLA UMEÅ.

Loooove you guys :)

So Cold...

I have just showered after a very unproductive yet busy day.  It started with a History exam, followed by a chem lab, followed by a business exam, then dinner, a game of flag football (which we won, hells yeah), and then rushing out the door to go to a foam party.

Yes yes, we went to a foam party.  It was fun, but lets just say that I picked up a couple of stories that I wouldn't share with just anyone...

And while standing outside the club waiting for a cab, soaking wet, that cold front that I was so excited about decided to really rub itself in my face.  By blowing cold wind.  While I'm wearing shorts and a tank top and am dreeeenched.

And now my phone got soaked so we'll see if it functions entirely in the morning...



Poor decisions were made tonight.  I have homework due at 08.00am (5 hours), a class at 08.30, and another exam at 14.30...

But tonight was totally worth it.  This is what college should be about, am I right?

OH.  And Eminem & Lil Wayne's video for "No Love" premiered tonight :)



Now I'm off to finish homework, study, and sleep...I have to be up in 4 1/2 hours? WISH ME LUCK.