Have a Cigar

I don't think it's healthy how much I love Pink Floyd...Or what am I talking about, of course it's healthy.  It should be the preferred lifestyle of everyone in the world.

Anyways.  My blog posts have been pretty boring recently.  So let's liven it up!

Today is my sisters 21st birthday, super excited for her :)  So we're going to a mexican restaurant for dinner where she'll probably have a margarita or something haha.  It's exciting but at the same time, we were allowed to do this when we lived in Sweden so it doesn't have quite the same excitement since we've been through this before..

Now Tyler and Michelle are watching Trainspotters in my living room.  It's interesting so far but I'm leaving soon so I won't be able to watch it :/

We'll see.  Let's see if I can get something interesting on here before the weekends over..

Forget What You're Told

Never have I ever had so many secrets of my own.

I'm meeting people, people I really like and want to get to know but I don't really know how to proceed.
I'm a friend-whore it's been discovered.
I love meeting new people, I love making new friends.
But I'm not super close with anyone yet.  I haven't found my BFF, y'know?
I know people, I'm super close to lots of people, but I wouldn't call anyone here at 3am just because I can't sleep and something is on my mind and I'm hurting.

They say they'll be there for you, but I guess I just haven't seen that level of commitment on a friend level from anyone.

Everyone is backing away once I do something they don't agree with.

I don't judge you, why do you get to judge me?
I didn't judge when you ruined other peoples' lives, when you ruined your own life, when you did and said things that most people wouldn't ever let their friends say to them.  Because I understood that there's always a reason.  But one thing I'm having trouble understanding is why I'm not allowed to make what you call mistakes.  Why I can't enjoy life to the fullest even if that involves doing things that aren't what you consider right.

I stand by my actions.  I regret nothing.  Every decision I make takes me to the next step and thats all that matters.  Why waste so much time wondering if youre ready for something?  Just do it.  Life is too short to bother anymore, I've discovered.  Especially since I'll probably die young.  I'm convinced itll happen and I don't know why...

Ughhhhh.
I'm getting carried away.

Sick

And not really enjoying it.
Yesterday and today have been surprisingly productive.  I ended up at a neighbors apartment for a couple of hours to study for the chemistry exam both days and I actually think I might have gotten somewhere.  It should be better than last time at least...I hope.

I've made a new goal for myself.  Things have gotten static again so I need to mix things up.  I've already mixed a couple of things up but it doesn't feel like enough.  I don't feel satisfied with my life right now.  So I'm going to rearrange my room to hold me off for another couple of days and then I'm going to have to do something.  I'm not sure what yet, but it has to be something.

Oh but back to the point, my goal: I'm going to get into shape with school, it's gotten to the point where it's not even funny how much I put off.  Starting the second I post this I'm going to be in school mode.  I'm going to fix my life so I can get to where I want to be.

Which means I'm going to email my advisor tomorrow and request to switch my major. Oh damn.
And then I'm going to do research this week on what schools I'm going to apply for transfer.  Or maybe I'll stay here.  But either way, I need to explore options at least.

So here goes.
Skål till mitt nytt liv?

Inte ett ord

Ibland är det skönt att ha sina egna hemligheter.

Grime

I've recently discovered an artist by the name of Tinie Tempah that I adore because of his catchy hooks and silly (yet surprisingly clever) lyrics.  In my cry for even more music, I was told to listen to an artist named Tinchy Stryder.  I pretty much fell in love.  He's similar to Tinie Tempah and so I began to dig into it.  Which led me to discover that they are part of a genre called Grime which originated in East London in the early 2000's.  Pretty much, it's amazing.  Check these out:

You're Not Alone by Tinchy Stryder



Game Over by Tinchy Stryder featuring Tinie Tempah



Written in the Stars by Tinie Tempah



Cross My Heart by Skepta featuring Preeya Kalidas



Green Light by Roll Deep



Number 1 by Tinchy Stryder featuring N-Dubz




Just a glimpse at what I'm listening to right now ;)

It is October, after all.

Got pranked sooo bad yesterday.  It was awful.

Asså, min granne kom och knackade på dörren och han hade blöd över händerna och han och sin kompis ba "VI BEHÖVER DIN HJÄLP. KOM NU." så jag sprang och vi kom in och gick till badrummet där en tjej som jag känner la i badkaret och blödde. Det var asläskigt.  Det fanns en blodigt kniv i diskbänken (?) och jag försökte lugna alla ner och sen började alla skratta.  Alla förutom jag och aivy.  Vi fattade ingenting...Asså det var skitläskigt och sen skitkul efter vi fattade.

Men ja ja, så är det i oktober haha.

Anyways.  Och idag!  Shiiit, vi hade fotbollsträning (amerikansk flag fotboll?) och bara typ 5 kom så vi bara kastade bollen till varandra för en stund.  Och sen bestämde våran granne att klättra up TRE VÅNINGAR över allas balkong och gå in i en annan grannes lägenhet.  det var så himla kul, jag dog.  och sen klättrade han ner efter allting.  skitkul no lie.  sen började vi kasta bollen igen haha.

Få se...vad tänker jag på nu?

ATT JAG SAKNAR ALLA MINA BÄSTISAR I LILLA UMEÅ.

Loooove you guys :)

So Cold...

I have just showered after a very unproductive yet busy day.  It started with a History exam, followed by a chem lab, followed by a business exam, then dinner, a game of flag football (which we won, hells yeah), and then rushing out the door to go to a foam party.

Yes yes, we went to a foam party.  It was fun, but lets just say that I picked up a couple of stories that I wouldn't share with just anyone...

And while standing outside the club waiting for a cab, soaking wet, that cold front that I was so excited about decided to really rub itself in my face.  By blowing cold wind.  While I'm wearing shorts and a tank top and am dreeeenched.

And now my phone got soaked so we'll see if it functions entirely in the morning...



Poor decisions were made tonight.  I have homework due at 08.00am (5 hours), a class at 08.30, and another exam at 14.30...

But tonight was totally worth it.  This is what college should be about, am I right?

OH.  And Eminem & Lil Wayne's video for "No Love" premiered tonight :)



Now I'm off to finish homework, study, and sleep...I have to be up in 4 1/2 hours? WISH ME LUCK.