Weird.

So my dad knows I like beer.  He offered me a Corona.  My mom spazzed.

Definitely on the weird side.  Like, I knew she would be upset cause she wants me to never drink or smoke or do drugs cause im her baby or whatever, but i mean...seriously?  it was beer.  just one.  in our own kitchen.

Anywho.

Biked over to Breckenridge park today to play poker with some friends. Hah.  Definitely addicted.  It was fun though.  I saw some friends i havent seen since even before i left.  We semi-planned for a day at the zoo next week.

So to fill you in, me and my besties do weird things with nicknames.  i dont know what it is, its just a thing we have.  like, once we gave all our friends fruit names.  it started off cause we were talking about who to invite to a party and they were right there so we called them by fruit so they wouldnt know that we were talking about them.  it ended up we gave everyone names.  i still know these names (well i had a bit of a recalling period after going through aivy's phone list).

but then we also have like...elite names i guess you could call it.  for example, aivy is fox, melody is shox, and im knox.  i like these names and we actually use them.  its my gaming name now :P

Recently we decided we wanted animal names so we started coming up with stuff.  aivy is G-Raffe, i'm Z/Bra, melody is P-Guino, connie is P-Bear (polar not panda). and now we're giving out names to other people.  cathryn is now du-CK (sounds hilarious out loud).  and yeah...its just silly childlike fun.  but its whatever.

the point of all of this is...im not sure what.

oh yeah.  i want to go to the dallas zoo and i plan to next tuesday.  i hope i can.  as in, there are no huge family plans.  cause in our house, family plans trump friends plans unless its big enough to be negotiable.  it works out most of the time...

anywho again.

the nights have been really nice and cool.  its 29 right now but a nice breeze and no sun and not that humid so its like, shorts and t-shirt weather but not hot.

i really liked biking outside.  i wanna go biking as much as i can before it rises again.

itll be 39 on friday and sunday.  its starting to get up there... its not as hot this summer.  its usually getting to about 40-41 around now.  and then by august we'll have like three days of 45 and then itll drop back to 40 for another week or two and then 35-40 until fall.

its really hot but unless youre outside between 11 and 3, its not as bad as youd think.

ive been sitting by the pool pretty much everyday between those times, trying to memorize my skin frying so that when the snow comes i can hold on to something from home.

what about college?  QuadC has a music business program.  I could live at home...save money.  nah.  couldnt live at home.  i love home but its really time i get out.  ive been pretty much ready to get out since i was like 14.  sigh.  senior year wont be at all how i imagined it would be.  not in a bad way, but in a way that i feel like i should really check.  is this REALLY what i want.  PESH was where everything was leading to.

this is turning into a really long post, so sorry but i write as i think and i always get carried away...

but seriously.  its a great school.  there are great people with the culture that i grew up with.  i know a looot of people and can walk the halls and actually say hey to people.  IB may be nerds but theyre still cool with the rest of the school.  well, some of us anyways.

and its just...PESH is a great school.  with hilarious teachers.  GOOD teachers.

if i stay i can get my license, a car, a job, start saving for college and go to school with my best friends.  hanging out with aivy and melody all the time drives me crazy cause we all have the same silly side that just makes every time we chill a workout for your abs cause youre laughing so incredibly hard.  we have mutual understandings.

if i stay i may not be able to do IB but if i did AP then i could probably still get into my senior year and be here.  and i wouldnt have to do stupid Swedish B HL.

and i could have my room with all my music equipment.  maybe i do want to be a producer instead.  i havent tried it yet so how do i know?  applying to college here is much easier when you have a high school transcript, not a bunch of promises and expected grades.  i wont get my grades until July.  That means i wont know if i really graduated until July.  thats dumb.

uuuuggghh.  everything would be easier if i stayed.

except for the part where ive already tasted a bit of sweden.

a n d   i t   w a s   f u c k i n   f  a n t a s t i c .

Suger.

So apparently Club 17 was closed today.  We found out about 2 hours before we were gonna leave...but we scraped together a fun evening anyways.

Started off with going to Genghis grill (Mongolian Grill) where i had a great meal.  the guy kind of looked at me funny when i gave him my bowl and asked me "uh...is that it? dont you want more?" so i went back and got more and when another guy delivered it he was like "these are the smallest bowls ive ever seen.  you guys really should get more." haha.  we had some fun with the waiters.

first i told them 3 people.  then aivy said, no there are 5 people coming.  then suddenly another person showed up so we said okay well thats 6.  but maybe 7.  and then a 7th person came.  and just as we were getting our checks an 8th person showed.  fun.  we ended up sitting there for about an hour and a half.

then we headed over to alexis's house (she lives right down the street from me) and we watched The Road to El Dorado and Anastasia while playing with her puppy.  it was fun.

i love my friends :)

aivy and i were talking about what college would be like.  i mean, we're starting our senior year.  after this is the real fun stuff.  we'll be legal adults and in charge of our own lives.  well actually aivy and i have great parents who really let us do whatever we want, but everyone else seems to be held back by parents all the time.  its insane.  and frustrating.

like today, aivy and i wanted to go clubbing so we decided to go clubbing.  ("clubbing" is a fun word for it.  club 17 serves no drinks.  basically its just dancefloors and djs...) but a lot of people couldnt go cause it was in downtown (where the crime rate is uber high) and it would be at night and all the drivers are teenagers...which is ridiculous.

i cant wait for college.

Drink all day

Play all night

Let's get it poppin'

I'm in Miami trick

that songs been stuck in my head all day.  aivy and i sang it pretty much the last 5 hours...

being home is such a comfort.  it feels right.

which is bringing  up a nagging question of

What if i stay?

Why is it

that all your favorite clothes disappear when you want to look nice when you go out?

Heres the plan tonight:

It could very possibly be the dumbest place i ever go to, but who knows, maybe i'll have fun anyways...wish me luck?

Poker Night

What: Texas Hold 'Em night

When: uhh some time after i get back

Where: we'll figure that out later, but probably hos mig.

Who: everyones invited.

music, food and drinks, poker

sounds good right?

:)

i ' m   a d d i c t e d .

Its July 4th!

todays plan:

-recover from playing poker from midnight to 6.30 in the morning last night (texas hold 'em baby ;D)

-brisket burger! :D:D:D

-set up new pool furniture stuff

-barbeque (beer brats for the win!)

-meet some friends at breckenridge park for the fireworks show

songs of the week:

and

by the way, i have some plans to clear up with you guys (emma/jenny). itll be fun but ill post later.

Teamwork!

5 stars! so funny and cute :D

am now working on a collaboration with aivy in making a cover of t-pains "church." haha ill let you know how it goes....it was either that or dead prez's "hip hop" but this was easier to start with. but then we got bored so we went to aivys house with cathryn to watch mr and mrs smith.

we didnt finish it though :/ i havent seen it in forever. it was just about as bad as i remembered though. well i take that back. its not BAD. its just...a bit slow in the beginning. and then the middle is funny but then it gets too soft and then its like...wait, is this even the same movie anymore?! its a weird movie.

but somehow i like it overall.

...weird...

Just look and you'll see me lying there

Drove again this morning, I'm really getting the hang of it and I'm loving every second of it. I think watching Fast and Furious really sparked a more intense love of driving. Hahaha. Oh well. No harm in it anyway...Sort of.

I wanna learn how to drift...Well i know how, but i dont know HOW. I get that you do a sharp turn into the turn and i think you rip the handbrake and spin the wheel in the opposite direction. Hmm. I think my dad can do it. weird eh? my dad is actually really interesting :P

Anywho, dipped

out around 6 and went to mcdonalds with some friends for a milkshake. then we realized that we just consumed about 600 calories in one of those drinks so we went to the park trying to burn off at least a little bit. it was fun. we spent most of the time climbing on one slide. fun fun fun!

now im preparing to switch all my stuff over to my new laptop. basically im just going from a powerbook g4 to a macbook pro. theyre the same, just ones only 3 years old whereas the other one (mine) is 6 years old. not that its no good, its amazing. its just my dad gets a new one every 3 years and i am the quickest to call dibs on it :)

ive realized that i dont really have any stuff of my own that i bought. nearly everything i own is secondhand. but theyre still really good stuff and i try not to take it for granted.

the only thing thats really mine that i bought myself and everything is my guitar. i miss it :( i left it in sweden cause i thought "oh well i can just play my other guitar while im there" and now i have my home studio set up and no amazing guitar to rip some great music...sigh.