Monday, November 9, 2009

Recently



IB Halloween Party




First snow(s)
It was actually like the 2nd or 3rd, but it was more this time.



I'm surprised at how much i blog.  Its addicting in a way.
I guess that would be why Facebook and Twitter are so big.
People like to talk about themselves.  Well not in a bad way.
More like, people like to share what theyre experiencing and sometimes the only way to do that is to talk about themselves.

I've been feeling bitchy recently.
Not to other people, just...angry sometimes.
Not sure whats happening.
I think I need a sunny day.  Just one.

I've asked my dad to go home for christmas.  As much as i'd love to be here for break...
It feels like everyone will have their own thing to do
And I dont want to hang around doing nothing the entire time.
And I dont want to spend my christmas break studying.
Christmas is such a family time.  And my entire family, my nukes anyways, all live in Dallas.
I miss home.
And I get so depressed in the winter.
I dont think I can do this forever.
I can't be here next year.
I'm sorry.
It's feeling like its about 95% sure that I will be going to UTD next year.
Maaaaaybe Texas Tech or UNT but I dont want to live in Lubbock...Or Denton.
And definitely not Austin.  And not Houston.

I'm preparing.
Now I know.
This is my last consecutive year here.
Next July I'll say goodbye to Umeå.
Maybe I'll come back the following summer?
Maybe I'll have to work.
Either way, I will come back.  Just not in a living situation.

I'm actually thinking...
Maybe I want to do my undergrad years at Dallas and then travel.
Get a job somewhere in a different country.  Work and explore.
How fun that would be.

2 comments:

Anne Le said...

What's wrong with Austin? :P

Hanna said...

haha Anne...
I just...its not my scene, ya dig? :P

I just wanna stay in Dallas is all :)
or close. somewhere city-like.
Richardson and Plano are definitely close enough for me :D